A letter to myself

                                                        

Dear Me,

As I sit down to write this letter to you, I am filled with emotions and thoughts that are difficult to put into words. I know that you are reading this at a different point in time, so I want to address you in three different ways: past, present, and future.

To my past self: My dear past self,  I look back on you with a mix of gratitude and sadness. Gratitude for the lessons you taught me, and sadness for the pain you caused me. But don’t worry, I don’t remember it as regret but rather as the lessons learnt. You remember a time when I was broken, shattered into a million pieces, and I didn't know how to put myself back together. you blamed me for everything that had gone wrong in my life, and I couldn't see a way out. You were young and full of dreams and ambitions. You had so much potential, but you were also naive and inexperienced. You made mistakes, and you struggled to find your place in the world. You faced challenges that seemed undefeatable at the time, but you also experienced moments of joy and success. Looking back, I want you to know that every decision you made, whether good or bad, led you to your present self. Thank you for learning from your mistakes and grew stronger with every obstacle you faced. 

To my present self: My darling present self, you are a mixed bag of emotions. Sometimes you feel like you have it all figured out, and other times you feel lost and unsure of yourself. But you have come a long way from where you used to be, and that is something to be proud of. You have chased your dreams, even when it was hard, and you have achieved things that you never thought possible. But there are still times when you doubt yourself, and you wonder if you are doing the right thing. You still have moments where you blame myself for things you cannot change or control, but you are learning to let go of that. You are in a different place than your past self. You have gained experience, wisdom, and perspective that you did not have before. You are still facing challenges, but you are more equipped to handle them. You have achieved some of the goals your past self has set, but you also have new goals and aspirations. Do not forget to take time to appreciate your accomplishments and the people in your life who have supported you along the way. But also do not become complacent or stagnant. Keep pushing yourself to grow and learn. You have the power to shape your future self. Do not keep blaming your past self for the things that didn’t go well back in time, your past self was experiencing everything for the first time so I hope you have taken the notes to change what your past self couldn’t do well. But remember to thank your past self for clearing your way to where you are today. 

To my future self: My beautiful future self, your present self is doing the best to clear your way but to be honest I do not know what the future holds for you, but I hope that you are happy, healthy, and fulfilled. I hope that you have continued to grow and learn, and that you have achieved even more of your goals. I hope that you have surrounded yourself with people who love and support you, and that you have made a positive impact on the world in your own way. The things are not easy where your present self is so my dear future self. Don’t keeping rushing your present self to skip steps that’s not how things are done over here, okay? Remember that you have faced challenges before and you have come out stronger on the other side. I hope that you will continue to make choices that align with your values and your goals, and that you will live a life that is authentic and fulfilling. I wish you all the best.